which emotion do you hide from the most?
as dushka zapata says, worry is a useless emotion.
it does nothing but stress you out, and i hate that, so i hide from it.
why hasn’t mom texted you back by now?
a million morbid images spill through my brain. what if she collapsed somewhere? what if she needs my help? what if she’s been attacked by someone?
she’s fine, i assure myself.
more awful situations fill my head. then she texts, i’m by the door.
i breathe a sigh of relief.
fear of losing the imperative people of my life, who truly matter to me.
i've already lost some of my dear ones in an abrupt manner. i don't have more mettle to bear losing someone again. many times, i try to overlook it, but sometimes, my hands become moist if i hear about someone's death.
i don’t really hide from my emotions. i acknowledge that i feel them, but i don’t like feeling them. i know that emotions affect my ability to process information and make a logical decisions, and i don’t like this. i severely crush strong emotions that and hope they don’t come out again.
but if i had to choose an emotion, i guess it’d have to be anger. anger makes you do the stupidest things that you don’t mean. i try very hard to curb my anger, and i try very hard to hold the furious words in. i try to wait until the feelings pass before talking about what the problem was.